As I walked past the door, I heard her voice. She was walking out from the class sluggishly, chatting with her friends. I looked at her beautiful face. Her sparkling, bright, dreamy eyes, her straight long blonde hair and her ruby red lips really stood up to me… Oh crap, she glanced at me! I turned my face away from her and just continued walking down my path. Come to think of it, where was she heading? Perhaps the school hall or the cafeteria maybe? Why did I even bother about this trivial matter?
It was the beginning of the year. We were required to stay and wait in our respective new classes. I was very lucky to be in the same class with Adrianna. I prayed for it the whole schoolbreak! After some time, a young female teacher came into our class.
“Good morning everyone. Please be seated,” said the teacher. “My name is Sarah, nice to meet all of you. From today onwards, I will be your class teacher,”
She introduced herself excitingly. It was obvious because her face was brimming with it. It’s only natural for a young teacher like her. Maybe this was her first time being a class teacher. Then, she wanted to nominate a class monitor. She asked for volunteers but there was none. No one wanted to take the big responsibility. It was silent. So silent as if one of my muscles was moved, the whole class would be distracted. Was it that bad to be a class monitor?
“Since there is no volunteer, Johan step forward please,” she ordered me. “Johan, you are now the class monitor,” she announced while I took some steps towards the front.
“What? Why me?” I asked Miss Sarah curiously.
“Because I said so,” now that was a very childish answer, and we just knew each other. She must have randomly picked my name from the name list. “Now, for his assistant I will pick…”
“ I,” a girl suddenly shouted. “I… I nominate… volunteer myself to be his assistant,” she said slowly with her soft and gentle voice. I turned around to make sure who volunteered. It was Adrianna!
“ Alright… That settles it. Adrianna, now you are officially Johan’s assistant,”. Now my chance to be close with her increased. I could use our work as an excuse to talk with her.
We as the class representatives were given tons of assignments by Miss Sarah. No wonder there was no volunteer back then. Sometimes I asked myself, is this really the class representative’s work?
“I’m sorry but Miss Sarah asked us to deliver our assignments to her desk,” said Adrianna once she opened the door.
I sighed and answered “okay, thanks,”. She always does that. At first she said that we were allowed to take home all our assignments. So I chose to finish it in the English clubroom where I could feel the breeze of the fresh air if I opened the window. I could also see almost the entire school compound which had the best scenery in this school. But then Suddenly, she asked us to deliver it to her desk which was like ten miles from here. What a tedious thing to do.
Adrianna and I walked side by side towards the teacher’s office to hand in our assignments. Gosh, I was so nervous! My walking pace was really unnatural. She and I walking alone. This really made me panic. Well, maybe if I started a conversation things would get better.
“ The teacher really gave us everything huh,” I finally said. She didn’t answer for quite some time. Then suddenly…
“ Oh… Umm… I’m terribly sorry. I totally forgot something at home. I should be going now. Hand in my assignment for me please,” she said and left in a haste after giving all her assignments into my hands. My golden chance collapsed just like that.
The other day at the teacher’s office, Miss Sarah told me that both Adrianna and I did our job well. She said that we were a good team and a perfect match for this work. Everything was normal except she said with the impression like she knew all my secrets. I felt a bit weird about the compliment. Wait a minute, a perfect match? Now those words really encouraged me to stand up and fight, I mean tell her my true feelings. I just needed to find the right time.
I saw her. She was eating alone at the cafeteria. Now is my chance. I must eat with her and then tell her immediately. Hold on, wasn’t it obvious that I liked her if I do that? No, I must not hesitate. I must tell her how I feel about her no matter what. So I walked towards her slowly while asking myself, what should I say first? ‘Yo, what’s up,’. No, guys do that only to another guy. How about ‘hey Adrianna,’. Nope, that’s only if we were close friends. ‘Hi there,’, that’s not good too.
“ Johan?” without noticing, I was already in front of her standing awkwardly.
“ Yo … hey there, hi Adrianna,” I said spontaneously but awkwardly. what was I saying? This is very terrible. My mind and my tongue were saying the exact opposite. I had to recover my sanity so this ‘encounter’ or ‘date’ would be smooth.
“May I eat here with you?” I couragely asked her.
“ Yeah, I guess” then the conversation stopped. She didn’t say anything and I had nothing to say either. I mean, I couldn’t jump to the conclusion saying I like her.
“ Do you hate me?” she started the conversation again with a shocking question. “I thought you hated me. Every time our eyes met, you turned your face away,”
“ No. I didn’t hate you. It’s just… I… I…” all I needed to say was I like you. Why was it so hard for me just to say that? Saying it was a lot harder than I thought.
“ Yes? What is it that you’re trying to say?”.
“ I umm… really have to go now,” I said desperately. I stood up ready to leave her. “So have a good day.” I wished her and left. I also left my untouched food behind. Running away was my only ability being in this situation. I didn’t have any confidence at all.
Despite leaving her without mercy yesterday, I regretted my action. I looked like a fool and was very embarrassed. I was actually very angry with myself. Maybe I should just give up on her and focus on my study or at least something that I was talented and interested in, I thought while walking towards the school gate as school had ended for the day under the bright evening sun.
“ Johan!” a girl shouted from behind. I turned around and saw Adrianna running towards me. I was trying to answer by saying hi or hello but she suddenly kissed me on the cheek. I was astonished and perplexed by her action. My face was crimson with embarrassment. She did not say anything after and just continued running out the school gate. As I watched her running with her long hair swished through the air, I curiously asked myself, “ was that a confession?”.
~ to be continued ~
Writer’s note: No, I’m actually not going to continue writing this story…
Written by: L-zerb