There he was playing football with his friends in the field as usual. I took a glimpse of him through my bedroom’s window. I could see him from here since the football field was a stone’s throw away from my house. He would play there almost everyday in the evening and I would watch him everytime he played from beginning to end. After we entered highschool, I never actually talked to him as we were separated to different classes. I could only look at him from afar because I didn’t have the courage to approach him.
It was Friday morning when I peeked inside of his class through the class window trying to find him from outside. I looked at his seat and there was no one. I rolled my eyes towards the entire class but I couldn’t find him. Was he absent? Suddenly, a matured male voice called my name.
“Lina, come here for a while,” he ordered. It appeared that it was the Advisor of the Football Club. The he continued “ Rick’s house is near your house right?”
“Yes,” I answered shortly.
“Could you send this form to him for me? I need him fill it up and send it back to me by Monday next week. He is absent today so you should really give me a hand and ease up my burden,” he said handing the form to me.
It was the National Football Championship participation form. ‘So our school’s football team has made it to the nasional level huh?’ I thought to myself. But that’s not important. What’s important right now was this form. The form that I was holding. How on earth should I give this to him? Enter his house and give it to him nonchalantly? I don’t think so. But that was the only way I could think of since I don’t have a phone and I don’t know his phone number.
That evening after school, I went to his house ready to do things that I would never do if nobody insisted me. I inhaled as deep as I could and exhaled before ringing the bell. There was no answer for quite some time so I rang the bell again. There was still no answer so I decided to just slide in the form under the front door.
Suddenly, I heard a loud thud noise from the inside. Curious about the sound, I reluctantly opened the unlocked door (it was unlocked??) to see what had happened. It was shocking to see Rick lying on the floor near the stairs. I promptly went to him and helped him.
“What happened?” I asked him a common question anyone would ask while helping him to get up before going to his room upstairs.
“Nothing. I originally wanted to get some water. But then the bell rang so…,” he murmured his unfinished sentense whiled clinging on me.
His whole body was shivering and it felt very hot. Perhaps he was catching a cold. I guess he was very sick. He couldn’t even go to the kitchen by himself to get some water. Well, that thought led me to another question.
“Where are your parents?” I asked while letting him lie on his bed.
“They have gone outstation,” he answered. At times like this his parents were not home?
“I’ll go make some water okay,” I said to him and then leave the room. I went downstairs and eventually to the kitchen. To think of myself going to almost every part of a guy’s house…
“Here’s the water,” I said as I entered his room again. He didn’t answer me. He was asleep.
I put the water on the table beside his bed and sat beside him while starring at him. His body covered with his blanket, his innocent, sick, red face. His fast paced breathing rate and his loud heartbeat. I couldn’t help but aware of all of them.
Then, he suddenly held my right hand and took it to his chest. His eyes did not open so I thought he was dreaming or sleep-walking to be more precise. Again, I could feel his trembling body and his rapid heartbeat. I really liked the circumstances and the aura I was in. I wished everything would stay like this forever.
Time flew by very quickly as an hour remaining in the same position felt like minutes.
“Hey, I actually like you since elementary school,” I uttered and then sighed. “If only I could say this while you’re awake,” I said loud enough to break the silence.
I took my hand off his hug and decided to leave the house as I’ve been wasting my time long enough to send his form. When I was about to leave the room he emited something.
“Lina. I heard what you said,” he said with his quavering sick voice.
I was dumbfounded to hear that. He heard me? Was he just pretending to be asleep all this while? How could I face him next time? Out of pure panic, I quickly went downstairs and out of his house. I believed the form was inside when I was leaving so it shouldn’t be a problem.
I entered my room and bumped my face onto my pillow. How foolish was I? I should’ve make sure he was really sleeping. In fact, I shouldn’t even talk about it. But what could I do? I couldn’t do anything now. I just had to face him when the time came.
Eventually, the time came. I woke up early in the morning knowing that I had to face him at the school. That’s right, at the school. That means I only have to worry about him when I arrived at school.
I opened my front door ready to walk to school when my heart suddenly raced fast. Rick was standing right in front of my house waiting for me.
“Let’s walk to school together,” he said. I could only approach him to his side.
“Umm… do you feel any better?” I asked to start a conversation about the other day.
“Yeah, I’m great now. You don’t need to worry. By the way, about the other day…”
“Ah, did you really hear what I said?” I asked curiously.
“Well, to put it bluntly, yes. Yes I heard you,” if that was the case, I only wanted to know his answer. “ Honestly speaking, I did not see you like you see me all this while but we could definitely be friends,” he explained.
He gave a very neutral answer. That means, I still had the chance to go out with him right? In the current state, we were ‘friends’ but I’d make sure that we were no longer ‘friends’ in the near future, I thought while walking beside him happily to the school.
Writer’s note: Nothing to say here…
Written By: L-zerb