I might make some drastic changes and decisions. I would quit being a leader and just focus on improving my English language proficiency. I’m not going to decide now but if my Business Communication Mock Interview result is below my expectation (because the session really was bad), I might quit everything. Why am I quitting? Well there are many reasons.
I’m just not a good leader
Now my roles are not that big. I’m a class representative, an unofficial leader of my college’s English game exhibition booth and a representative for my course of a club. I should be able to handle them well because of the small little roles right? Well no because it’s very difficult for me. Okay take this example. A higher up instructed me to spread a news to my subordinate about an event. Normal people would take only one minute to spread the news. However, I’d take 15 minutes thinking about what I should say, what will people say about me and just the pressure of TALKING. Yes, I’d take 15 times longer than a normal people. Some of you might say that if I expose myself towards those situations more, I’d get better. Well I’ve done other roles for almost a year and I didn’t get better so I think I better give up now than later.